two days ago, i told myself to be audacious before i told him the "secret" he was asking about. knowing to expect nothing at all &to prepare for the worst. saying those words, saying that i like him. wow. a voice in the back of my head kept commenting on how unusuallyy calm i was. he said "you're still awesome, v." well. i'm still awesome. don't know what to make of that. he promised nothing would be different...things would still be the same. in myy mind, i was thinking "we shall see, we shall see." and he was right. the first to ever fulfill that promise. things were the same. except for maybe me pulling awayy from a hug from him because he me byy surprise &that was myy initial reaction. i wish i hadn't though. i feel so deprived of his hugs now. but at least we still talk. and everything. just like before. yea? well, it seems like it, at least.