i'm chewing this "new" dentyne ice soft chew gum that came for free in the mail todayy; chewing it to the rhythm of myy typing without even realizing it until just now. oh, how i love the free stuff that come in the mail especiallyy for me. (= myy best guyy friend and i aren't talking so much. but i guess that's what happens when i create this much needed distance. it feels good not being obligated to tell him everything in myy life that he asks about. i don't know. that's how i've always been: youu ask me something, i answer youu truthfullyy. but he always made me feel horrible about it in the end. plus, i don't like being predictable veryy much. standing on myy for the first time in ages gave me a different perspective. before, i didn't even notice that the humongous stuffed bear was still there. it's been there for over a year now, just sitting. i have to get rid of him, but nicelyy. a twentyy-dollar token of "love", it's strange to admit i used to talk to him, this stuffed animal. speaking of stuffed animals, i've starting sleeping with a stuffed animal in myy arms again. it helps me sleep faster. such comfort. please mark, the first time i've ever failed a test because i didn't understand at all. usuallyy, i fail because of careless mistakes or bad moods. i onlyy filled in two answers. shit, this trigonometryy test is going to kill myy geometryy grade. it shouldn't even count because we're supposed to learn geometryy, not trig. thirtyy three days until summertime. i was staring out of one of the windows in myy room earlier. it was strange, and i can swear, i smelled the fresh air; summer air. the kind of scent in the air that's similar to the smell of iron in the blood.