tuesdayy.

haha, caught cutting school means house arrest. and no late-night computer use. but first 4.0 report card that came todayy made myy mom much nicer to me. no more yelling. hard work pays off, i guess. (= a few weeks ago, i told him i was afraid he was going to lie &end up hurting me. &his replyy was that he hasn't made anyy promises, so he can't break a promise to me. but last night, he promised to teach me how to ride a bike. kind of scared. of the idea of actuallyy having to ride a bike. &also that he mayy end up forgetting his promise. but at the same time, kind of happyysmileyy inside. (]= apparentlyy, two people in our class told me it's obvious i like him. &that he knows. &one of them even said that since he knows i like him, and things aren't awkward, he likes me too. i'm not letting myy hopes up, onlyy because i don't want them to be shot down.
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Hey yeah... your little story about him tickling you and then you both holding hands for awhile... lol, if I was a guy and I did that - so to say with Ayse!! For that moment I would've been in a whole new world!!

The lol thing that he put at the end of his title I wouldn't think suggests much... its just something I would say has been used to express a form of happiness - thats what it would've been with me had I done that.
He's gonna teach you to ride his bike - motorbike is that? I think you should've left the "I like you" that you wrote in his book... for the decent guys that are out there - it makes us feel appreciated... something as small as writing what you did, it makes us pause for a second (of course also knowin who it was from) and think hard about the person who wrote that message... it brings us closer to the girl - you know.. its like an ice breaker..
but anyways... I think thats probably more so how I would feel! lol

You seem to have alot of faith for me and Ayse, lol... I suppose its true then considering that we are gonna be meeting up within the next hour or so... I sent her a txt yesterday asking me if she was fed up with me... I said what I said to you... how I just want to know her feelings, what keeps her busy during the days and simply whats on her mind...
She txt back saying no she's not fed up... but that its just hard for her to trust every guy that tell her they like her... she said shes had tough times in the past with guys and so it has made her feel insecure - thats what she said... we then txt abit more... me dropping her more things about how I feel for her... she said what I say is difficult to take it - probably overwhelmed her... but she said she was going out today for some
quite alone time and then said I can come if I like... so yeah, lol.... I just hope I make good conversation, lol!

We'll see how it goes! lol

I will get back to you later of course! ...Just thinking right now that in awhile I will be in the presence of the most beautiful girl in the world.. it makes my stomach feel funny! lol

Take care anyways! Later
Lol... funny thing about my title "Hope for everything, but expect nothing" ..Ayse had to cancel meeting up due to her sister having a small accident cutting her finger - they work in a cafe... lol... just seems a tad ironic or such considering she txt me 2 mins before I was about 2 leave, but I'll give her the benefit of the doubt, lol... must admit that my heart sank for awhile! lol.
Its a good thing you don't let your hopes get high... if you can - stay like that in all situations... unfortunately for me, I'm always getting my hopes high (more than often anyways) ..one day, I'll get them so high, that when they're shot down I'm gonna fall right of this planet! lol

I'll txt Ayse later anyways just to try and hear from her... or hopefully she will cheer me up and txt me first!
I mean, I'm sure your into really decent guys of some sort... but me... I live through my heart, I'm a sensitive person (usually) because of it. I live my life simply caring for those around me... I want to help this world and the people in it one day... I'm an honest, caring, affectionate, good listener, sincere, truthful (probably same as honest)... all those good things... I feel I deserve ayse...