im not so much a child that i cant admitt that im petrified. im petrified of where we will end up. Maybe im just absoultly crazy, or maybe its bc im so drunk im not sure where i even am. either way, i just relized how absoultly lost and crushed id be without you. I love you, and im falling inlove with you. Its the scariest thing ive experianced in a long time. without even knowing it i put so much faith in you saving parts of me - im hopeless. im so scard of letting you know the truth of how ifeel about you because at times im not even sure if this is normal. i never have been exzactly discrete in anything.... its always all or nothing. At times iwant to shoult how much i love you and at others im doubting that its even real (all the mean while i know that if i lost you my heart would break) im completely irrational, and so far out there half the time i dont even know my name. The only thing i know is that if you told me today that you were going to walk away that id never be the same. The thing i have to relize before its too late is that your not him. Even if in the end you end up breaking my heart, you arent him. your worth the the hurt i think you are going to cause.