Laying in the bed next to you watching as your chest moves up and down with your breathing and your nose wrinkle to what ever it was you were dreaming about made me come to a conclousion i wish i never reached. Its been dawning on me for awhile, since *he'd been taken away. I realized that the feelings i had for you back when you were with her, never really died. They never went away, and maybe thats the reason why i refused to let myself around you so long as i was involved with *him. You two were friends, YOU are the reason why i was even with *him, and for a good long while *he was, or so i thought, the only man i wanted. After we had broken up and i went to your house, for the first time in a year, i let anthor man aside of *him in me, it was you, and it resparked something that i had barried in me. It started beating me over the head yesterday when you were hard at work. I watched you move so presise and your eyes focus on your work. I just watched as you traced every line onto her skin, my heart racing as if i was in some life or death matter, my breathe becomming shallow. Your skin, the muscles that pop threw your upper arm defined just enough to know that it is there, the deep dark eyes, and calming voice, the light freckles scattered over your nose, the scent of your colone. I saw someone perfect, even if just for a minute. Later that day when she had left and it remained just us watching tv, or lightly conversinig on some unimportant matter, i began to get this hollowing scence in the pitt of my stomach. Thats when i knew, im really falling for you. Then as you placed yourself inside of me, my body begins to shake from pleasure and pure extasy, i relize that i never want to let you go. I dont know how this happened, or why all the sudden my emotions would make themselves known After being numb for so long. its like a spell had been casted apon me and now all that plagues my mind is you, even though everything and everyone around me is crashing down. i begged for this not to happen. i prayed it wouldnt be you. But before i ever even made it into your bed, before i walked threw the front door of your house, before i even choose to contact you, i knew it would be like this. Me burning red hot for you, and you completly unaware and damaging to what little a heart that ive got left. So, is this a begining of an end, or an ending of a begining? are you the man that appeared in my cards. Are we the lovers? Regardless of the answers, i know i still have a path that i have to take with you. There is something that pulls me in and wont let go. more then friendship, more then love.