who could ever know the truth? the thoughts and the feelings and the longing. i just want to go back. back to when thing never made scence but it ws all ok and things had esxcitement and everything was something wrapped in a menaing so much bigger then nothingness. the games and the tricks and the plans and scheming but all of it was so much fun even when i was deterating. There was a meaning and an adventure 24/7.

now its all gone, and will stay all gone. It could never be the same.