With everything thats going on in my head im surprized i havent had a complete melt down yet. For absoultly no apearant reason i been breaking out into tears like the people in a musical would break out into random song. I dont know if im just beyound pmsing, or if its just the combination of all the crappiness comming out. Day in and day out i been feeling so useless, and people cant seem to tell me anything other then the things that i do wrong and that i cant do anything anyway. (if thats NOT the case, it sure FEELS like it) I feel like giving up, im not really getting anywhere anyway. Despite what it may apear i do try. But its never good enough. So if i give up, i can no longer be disappointed. Nothing is really worth trying for anyway... right? Its funny how i only break down when no ones looking.