Why is it that everytime i read all our old im's i suddenly get a tinge of hate and jelousy that washes over my body and all i want to do is start a fight with you about the otherwisely unresolved issues that i had with her and you even though i know shes nothing to you now.I guess i just have this all built up and packed away agression and all i want to do is call you out on how much of an asshole you were at the time. I kept saying that it was alright and it was okay but it really wasnt. I dont know how i forgave you for her. Why didnt i just leave you? I knew what you were doing and i knew things you didnt know that i knew about, but i never left. Instead i kept how hurt i was to myself and i kept everything to myself. Maybe thats why despite how much more ive fallen for you i get worried sometimes that your going to go off and do the same thing again but this time with anthor girl. Im scared im forever going to be waiting for you. Was i stupid, or really that inlove? Now its too late to do anything that would involve leaving you. Im in too deep. You almost feel like my last chance to be inlove, to be happy. Even if i wanted to leave i never could walk away from you, because threw it all you always were veiwed as my future. I dont know how or why it happened like it did.. so fast so strong.. I love you - I love you. And i pray that your not going to be the one to kill me all over again. My biggest problem with you is me.