where would i be if i didnt have the friends that i do. How much better or worse would i have ended up? I dont know. Ive been EVERYTHING. A drug,and sex addict, an alcoholic, a suicide threat, ive had anger problems and severe depression, anxiety and panic attacks. Im a fricken mess. At the begining of the year i was doing coke every week, fucking random men everyday almost, drinking when ever i could, while maintaining a job, and a social circle. I was happy (for the most part) Come to the end of the year, ive lost my job, but come clean, as far as friends, well, ive got only a few (less then a handful) that i still want around me and ive been with the same man now for almost 5 months. (something i was never able to do) but im not happy really. It seems odd how i (or anyone) can end up where we all do. If i could i would take back a few things that i did this year. but now its all said and done, And the only way to go is straight ahead. There is no turning back time. I think theres more to life then what is shown, however keeping the faith that there is some good to come, is the hard part. The winter always makes people fat and depressed.