Here i am, in the middle of a deep sea. I look around and see only water surounds me. There is no boats there are no islands there is nothing and im perfectly alone. Do i push fowards and try to survive this, hang on to even the smallest hope that someone will come to rescue me, or should i give up and be forever forgotten laid out on the bottom of that sea? I cant even see the faintest thing of what it is that i want. IT seems like my minds gone fuzzy and ive forgotten how to think. Is everything against me? Or am i hullicinating? On some days, i dont even know my own name. From one moment to the next im someone diffrent, with diffrent aspirations and dreams every switch. It was kinda like when I was a kid and Id put my arms out and spin and spin and spin, stopping suddenly. Even though i was standing still in that moment everything around me still moved, i knew what i was seeing was really there, but it was all distorted. I dont know if i can do this. This thing called life. I dont seem to be getting very far, and ive lost faith of getting anywhere, yet im not exzactly devastated, im not happy, im just - here.