I think i miss my party days. I dont thik i was happier but it added alot more - SOMETHING - to my life. I miss drinking till the morning and doing so many drugs that i didnt know who i was. Meeting wild new people and getting into trouble. Lol. I miss all of that. Now everything is so calm and theres just alot of nothingness. Theres no scence in being a good girl anymore. I just miss being wild - unpredictable. Maybe its just some excape of mine.. I think im back to the begining, just looking for something.