I woke up this morning and suddenly found some hope of getting my life together and working out details that i so badly need worked out. I know what i want now, i just have to do it. Its weird having this feeling of knowing what i want. Im learning to know i cant force anything nad i cant controll everything. Somethings arent my fault. And time away from situations is what i needed. Now i know i have to just deal with what is going on to the best of my ability, otherwise ill make myself sick stressing over it.