get up - pee - get coffee - get food - watch tv - play on the computer - get ready for work - go to work - come home from work - eat - play on the computer - watch tv - fall asleep - start all over again.

Theres got to be something out there. Something to make life worth living. Something to feel furfilled. SOMETHING. anything. i dont want want everything. i just want to be happy. When 90 years old i want to be able to tell my grand babies of something amazing that i have done, something worth talking about. But this - this is it. where is that adventure, the curoisty, the joy in my life. where did it go? did i ever have it? i want to believe that things will look up and my fun loving adveturious alter ego will one day be real but the truth is this, and only this: when i pass, old and gray, no one will know who i was or even care. Ill just be another body in the ground rotting away.