imbetween thurs night and today, sunday, theres alot that has occured to make me seriously start thinking about things both with myself and my ex. (and yes, i saw him on thurs) Its funny bc all weekend people been telling me things that i already knew. I have no self confidance, i need to work on myself on the inside before im ready for a rrelationship, love yourself before you love anyone elese. Its weird almost, like a spider web of things in a collage that i know will fall into place at the end but i can not make scence of it just yet. Things around me are moving at the speed of light but here i am stuck, still, my feet glued to where i stand. Am i to frieghtened to take the next step towards what i know i need to do? I know its not that hard to move on with myself to make it all better its just getting the courage to take the step. will i ever find the strength?