im loosing my mind. Being compltetly wrapped and absorbed into my own warped thoughts and delousions. im hiding within myself. dying within myself. placed in the middle of a patch of land with at least 100 diffrent ways to go which road do you pick? how do you know its the right one? how do you know it wont lead you to failure and hurt. how do trust and believe its the right.

im too busy being trapped in my past to start toward any future i could have. i feel like clearing everyone out and leaving starting anew where no one even has the slightest clue what my name is and my background. i dont know anyone. i want to be a stranger. a ghost. will it ever change? will i ever be happy with where i am. who im with. Who i am. it seems impossible to have everything. or even something. anything?