i dont even know what to do with myself. . i feel so...well...lost. I am under alot of pressure right now, and i dont know how to deal with it...but the wierd thing is...i dont even know if i care anymore. I think i have gone numb to it all. I have to move out of my house that i love in a few weeks, school is shit, my friends are completely falling apart, and i cant even feel it. Normally i would be completely freaking out, but im not. and i dont know why. I think i am trying so desperately to get away from it all that i didnt even realize that its all getting away from me.. . and im scared.