So uhh. . today was okay. . i guess. Not really any problems. Oh, i take that back. For my writing class today, our journal topic was " an event that has had a large impact on your life." So, i wrote about my parent's divorce, and then about moving, and then about dean. I never realized how much i really missed him until today. So, this was the entry. . . "Last November, my friend Dean from my old neighborhood died. He was only 23. He was like a big brother to me. He took care of me when my own brothers were mean to me. When i had no one to play with, he would take me for a walk over the levee, and we would go fishing, or play on the big rocks. Or we would play mario bros. on his nintendo, and he always let me win. He did alot of bad stuff in his life. He took drugs, and got mixed up with alot of the wrong people. Two months before he died, he had been completely sober, he got a job, and was setting his life straight. I still to this day dont know for sure how he died. But my mom told me that it was an overdose. Not many of my friends know much about Dean, bc i dont really like to talk about him. Part of me has not quite been the same sunce he died, and it hasnt completely hit me that he is gone. Ill never get to see him again. No more piggy back rides, No more digging in the dirt for the treasure that he buried when i wasnt looking, no more walks on the levee till the sun goes down. I miss him so much it hurts." When i got to this part of the entry, i just broke down and cried. I couldnt even bring myself to read it. That has NEVER happened to me before. I mean, yeah, i have cried in school befor. But not like this. Never like this. God i miss him. and now my best friend wants to kill herself. what the fuck am i supposed to do???