i have calmed down a little and i feel. . well, better. I am still really upset, but im not like suicidal or anything. . . current situation. . improving (slightly). im really overwhelmed by all this shit. I have to move in like 2 weeks. And that sucks. I dont want to leave this house. I have the pressure of not spending anytime with my father riding on my back, and i have this stupid other shit to deal with. Its kinda hard. . .but i think i'll be okay. i hope. . .