I dont know what it is about myself. . but there's something there, and i know it sounds cliched, but there is something that i feel like im hiding, not only from myself, but also from even the people that mean the most to me in my life. I tend to fall in love easily, i guess it has alot to do with my mom. I tend to take after her. I make the same stupid mistakes that she did when she was younger, with the occasional difference in situation due to the change in time periods. I dont understand that even though i have learned from her mistakes, and know the right from the wrong bc of her, i continue to fuck up. I guess it is an inherited mental imbalance. I fall in love with the biggest assholes in the world. I guess that this is a reflection of my relationship with my father. I get my heart broken time after time, and though i say it wont happen again, it always does. And remorse inevitably follows. I know that i am still young, and most people think that you cant fall in love at this age...but i have been through a lot of other shit that normally doesnt happen o kids my age, so why should love be any different. Love is, in most cases, a priveledge. It is not a right-of-passage. It just happens. "Love is everything its cracked up to be. thats why people are so cynical about it. it really is worth fighting for or being brave for, risking everything for. and the trouble is if you dont risk everything, you risk even more."