Well, It's finally 2004, but i feel no different. I know that normally you dont feel a difference in the change of years, but normally I at least feel somewhat refreshed. For some reason this isnt happening this time. I feel...wierd. I feel stuck. I feel like nothing has changed and the things that i want to change will, inevitably, stay the same. I found out something disturbing about one of my closer friends recently, and it has caused me to believe that not only is everyone going to hurt me at one point or another, but also that...i wont do anything to stop it, no matter how badly i want to. I dont like this feeling. So...this year is off to a marvelous start....