Okay, so i spent the day with mica. It was cool. I missed her alot. I think im going with her and stef tomorrow. That should be cool. They are two of my favorite people, and i love spending time with them. So, while out today, i got to thinking (bad, i know). And i realized that i am really really naive. I dunno. . . i feel this NEED to feel loved, and i guess i'll be satisfied from almost anyone. I am a SUCKER for a sweet talker. (gotta love TBS) I fell in love this week. He knows who he is. I want so badly for it to be able to work, but i dont think it can. For many reasons. And that really sucks. This whole insecurity thing is really taking its toll on me. my mom says its bc my father didnt love me enough. I think she might be right, but i dont want him to be the reason i keep getting my heart broken. He does that well enough himself. Aah. Im fucking pathetic. I hate it. I hate when people are stupid. I hate when people are so oblivious. I hate being so obvious. I hate when people are too oblivious to notice when im being obvious. And i hate wanting something thats not gonna happen.