Okay, so uhh my mom and i are in this big fight bc she wanted me to go shopping with her yesterday, and i really didnt want to go, so she isnt speaking to me now. Joy. Omg people piss me off severly. So, my best friend mica and i are on like shaky ground right now. And i dont know why...its just one of those things. I think im kinda mad at her though. Not really mad, just really upset with her. So, here goes. . Okay, her other best friend is a biiiig douchebag. He like treats her like shit, and does soo much fucked up shit to her. He loves her, but he has a rwally fucked up way of showing it, most of the time. I mean, yeah, he tries really hard to redeem himself when he knows that he has fucked up, he'll be really sweet to her, and hug her and shit. . . he always does a good job at redeeming himself. But this occurs so often. There are these two other girls at school (friends of mine) that he is like obsessed with, in every sense of the word, and he has been blowing mica off for them alot lately. He doesnt notice that he is doing anything wrong. Or, he does, but he just does it to get to her, and to push her buttons. The really sad thing is, she sees it!! The girl is not stupid!! She knows exactly what is going on, and she'll get really pissed off at him, but the first time he says something sweet, or "redeems" himself, she forgets all about it. I mean, i believe in the whole "forgive and forget" thing, but DAMN! its not, by any means, supposed to be a perpetual thing. True friends dont fuck up THAT much. And it really upsets me that she puts up with all of his shit. Bc if it were anybody else, she wouldnt! she would have dropped them SO fast! and very well she should. Bc this is crap. No one should have to put up with that shit. I know i wouldnt! but like, she would do ANYTHING for him, and yes, he loves her, he loves her VERY VERY much, but i dont think he would do the same for her. Bc thats just how he is, he is selfish. And i dont think he quite yet understands the meaning of true friendship. I, on the other hand, am here for her through ANYTHING. She is my best friend and i love her so much. But lately, she has been kinda blowing me off for him. Not alot, just like with little stuff. Like she wont come to my house after play practice when she says she will, because he is still there. Little shit like that. She knows how faithful i am to her. She knows that i am here for her through anything. That even if we just got into the biggest fight ever, and she needed someone to talk to, i would STILL be there for her. I want so badly for it to not be like this, to be able to just let it go, and move on, but i cant. I love her too much for that. And i know that she knows all of this. But she takes advantage of it. She takes it for granted, without even noticing it. But i am still here. And i always will be.