Dont fake yourself into ever thinking about yesterday. Today was thanksgiving. It was lovely to spend time with the family. I have missed them terribly as of late, and they kept me in stitches all day. I have been making more money lately, doing things like babysitting, tutoring, hookering... they all pay well, and some tasks can be quite enjoyable. Saturday night, i get to be a waitress. Not exactly my idea of a great Saturay night, but hey... 10 bucks an hour? I'll deal with it. Well, not everything is just peachy, but i dont much care. Or at least, I'm pretending not to. I thought it would be okay, but it has to be a mutual thing. Im not going to make a fool of myself anymore by throwing myself at you (as much as possible, anyway). Nothing much has changed emotionally. We both know that. This can't all be put on me. Some effort from your side is needed, and much appreciated. I'm sick of trying so hard, only to be shot down and ignored. You may not notice it, but you've never been very observant, have you? It's there. You know who you are. And yes, i DO feel this is the only way to get through to you. So, i have thrown myself out there. Its up to you now. And maybe you'll miss me as much as i miss you. That being said, Flo Presti (acclaimed vocal instructor in N.O) wants to work with me for Vocal Rally. Needless to say, i am quite excited. Yes, i am making a bigger deal of it than it is, but so fucking what. ts still pretty damn cool. So. . . much to be thankful for, eh?