omg people piss me off. I hate them sometimes i swear to god. I dont understand why you want to piss your friends off. I know i do it all the time. I will never get it. and i want to take a shower but i cant because my mom is in the bathroom. God i am sooo annoyed. And you know what really sucks? I know that this hoilday is gonna BLOW. I doubt that i am gonna have fun AT ALL. I know im not gonna get to see him....that SUCKS. im pathetic, i know it. But i cant help it. He makes me happie. WHAT THE FUCK IS SOOOOO WRONG WITH THAT????? I WILL NEVER FUCKING UNDERSTAND THAT EITHER!! Its not a big deal. So why the fuck does everyone ALWAYS have something to say about it? Its no one else's fucking business. They act like they dont have that one person that they would die to be with, bc just the thought of them brings a smile to their face, and you just cant wait for the next time you see them, bc then you will be happy again for a while. I havent seen him in sooooo long. Its been like a month. I miss him. and it sucks. I know it sounds gay, but i think everything is shitty bc i havent seen him in a while, bc i am happy when i see him, so things go really well. When i dont see him, i am like depressed, and things suck. I dont want this to ruin my mardi gras. I am going to sleep late, and drink. ALOT. bc i have been sober for a month and a half. And im sick of it. I have had like 0 fun in like forever. And i just want to chill with my friends. And if one more person says somethin about him i think ill either completely frizz out, or ill cry. And i really dont want to cry.