Okay, my mom and i are on better terms now. But i dont know. . .im so sick of only being able to talk to her about shit after we get into a big fight. Its frustrating. She said that i was no better than my father or mike. That hurt. That didnt just hurt...that killed me. She said i treat her no better than they did. And that i have no business being mad at them for the shit they did to her, bc i am the same way. That i dont give a fuck about her feelings and that i walk all over her. You know what, i didnt fucking leave. I am better than they are, bc i am still here. She told me she didnt want me here anymore, so i told her that i would just fucking leave then, and she started crying. She is so bipolar. Its crazy. And then she felt the need to list all of the bad things in my life, and then asked me why i never want to talk about them to her. 1. My best friend wants to kill herself 2. I am in love with someone who treats me like shit 3. I cant stand the way i look. 4. My father doesnt really care about me 5. and my grades SUCKED she forgot the "i have a psycho mom part", but besides that, she was pretty accurate. She tends to feel the need to list all of my problems, and then try to fix them, even though she never does. And then she took me out to lunch. And we're fine now. Bc i am so scared that if we arent okay, she'll do something stupid. I am so upset that she said what she said. But i just gotta suck it up, and forgive her. . . right? I am tired of being so passive. Im tired of always forgiving everyone so easily, in order to salvage something. It is not fair to me. I hate being the pathetic one. I am stronger than that. But i cant help it. Its just how it is.