It is fucking freezing in my house. My mom is watching the birdcage...paying no attention to the fact that i think my ears just chipped off. oh well.... I was cleaning out my closet earlier (literally throwing away all the crap that i never wear) and i started thinking about what i said in my previous entry. I realized that while i am very insecure about who my real friends are, and i am completely oblivious as to who they are, i shouldnt worry so much about it. I know how i am to my friends... and that is how i want them to be with me. I think that i am a good friend...i am faithful and honest, i mean, sure, i fuck up every now and then, but nothing unfixable. Everyone fucks up. Its human nature. I know that everyone has different ideas about friendship, and i try to avoid people that dont share the same ideas as me, but you cant avoid everyone. I also realized that i shouldnt dwell on life after me. Its not about who will miss me when im gone. Its about who cares enough to be with me while im still here. My friends are my life...id do anything for them... and i know that if they are in fact, true friends, they would do the same for me. I have to concentrate more on my life and the people in it, not the future..after all, i am only 16, there's alot more to come...i hope.