I'm 95% EMO, how about you? Right so uhh. . today was weird. . . Like, was happy for a while, and then depression like randomly set in. I was surrounded by couples at play practice today. Caroline and brian, cynthia and wilk, gabby and brandon (no, theyre not going out, but they look like it), and i was just thinking to myself, wtf??? I feel so alone lately. I feel unloved, and not by my friends, but by people in general. I FEEL UNWANTED. Nikoehl kept looking at me weird today. I think that was her way of slowly trying to make things cool between us again. I dont know if i can do that. Everytime i see her, i think about her and peter, and it just makes me even sadder. Im so happy when im with him, but then i think about me and him, and then about she and him, and its just not the same. I miss him. I miss being able to be with him without feeling the way i do. I want sooo badly to be over all of this shit, but i dont think i can forgive her for what she did to me, or to him. She hurt me, and everytime i think about it, its like a knife in my heart. I want everything to go back to the way they were before. I want to be able to be around him without feeling so apprehensive. I want to feel loved again. I want to feel WANTED again. I dont think i'll be okay again until i get over him, or find someone else to fill the void. But i dont know. . . i have a broken heart and i need someone to mend it. Can you fix a shattered heart with duct tape?...you can fix everything else with duct tape...why not your heart? I feel a song coming on...damn emo.