Okay, so umm. . .yeah. Lately i have been thinking, and i have decided, that. . .well, i dunno. . .ive decided alot of shit that doesnt work out, so what does it matter? haha You know that feeling that you get when you KNOW that something is right, or that something should be happening that isnt, but you just cant seem to bring yourself to do anything about it? Like, say you like a person, and they seem SOMEWHAT interested, but they dont make the first move. And you DESPERATELY want to, but you just cant. I hate that. Its as if picking up the phone and calling someone is this life altering experience that could make or break a person. You have all of these insecure feelings like that person will either think you are a scary stalker not only for calling, but for knowing the number, or they'll try to think up some excuse so not to talk to you, or theyll just straight up hang up on you. And no matter how badly you want to pursue it, it just feels like there is a hook in your stomache and every time you try to move, it pulls you farther and farther back. So you figure, hey, ill just wait for them to make the first move. If they like me as much as i like them, then they can pick up the phone and call me too. But did you ever think that maybe, JUST MAYBE, that person is going through the EXACT same feelings as you are? hmm... never thought about it that way did you? haha. im hoping thats the problem in my case. Im praying that he hasnt picked up the phone and dialed my 7 digits, merely bc he is so scared that im going to hang up on him. I SWEAR. . . .i wont hang up on you.