What am I to do? Things are happening around me, That I can not stop. People are changing. But while their at it, their hurting me. But what am I to do? Even though they grow, Sometimes they still have no clue, That I did none of this . And the only thing they make me feel, Is like going away, running away, disappearing into the blue. They still have no concept, that theres never anything to make it better, and that I’m stuck Because of them; So, what am I to do? My mind is lost in space forever. My body is numb with fear. But what am I to do? There is nothing to take the pain away; Except to turn back time. Or maybe close my eyes and dream, And stay in it forever. My tears are falling down second after second. But what am I to do? The only one I ever loved, The only one I ever showed My heart, my soul, my whole pure truth, Was you. You make me cry. The tears don’t stop. But what am I to do? I cannot make someone do what I think is right. I cannot make someone love me, even though I know; That without their love I cannot go on. And that if they chose me, I’d make sure their life would always be happy. But what am I to do? I sit and stare at a screen forever. I watch my life run by before me. I see the smile on actresses’ faces. I want one too. But someone has to make it happen, Not me. What am I to do? What am I to do, when none of its my fault? You tell me what to do, you still have possession of my heart. You lied, And cheated. Then whispered in my ear, That you were truly sorry. And because I love you, I still had room to care. And even though I shouldn’t ; There was no way I couldn’t. Because even though you broke my heart, Even though you made me cry, Even though you made me feel like the only answer was to die, For some strange reason; I still cared. What else am I to do? You tell me , it hurts for me, to even think. You tell me what to do. Do I keep caring, Or do you never ,ever want to turn back time? Do you never again want to be the one? The one I hold and kiss, The one I love more than any of this. Do you never again want to make me smile? Never again, want me to pick up the phone, and you be the one I dial? Or do you think someday my heart will once be filled Thoroughly and honestly, with me and you? Because I do not know I just have no clue, So you tell me… What am I to do? oh my god..this is perfect for me. Its scary. I love you.