i take too much shit for granted. I dont think that i fully appreciate the good things in my life. And i need to. I have the best friends in the entire world. I really dont think that they can even fathom how much they mean to me. They are my life. I COULD NOT live without them. Especially mila. She is my best friend. We tell eachother everything. She helps me get through all of my shit. And even though we have our off periods, she is always there for me, bc she can always tell when i really need her. And i will always be there for her. I have grown farther and farther aprt from all of the people that i love. And im tryin to come back, but its not easy. I want to be able to reconciledifferences, and just be happy again, but i dont think i can make that happen on my own. Friendship is a two-sided thing. It just wont work any other way. And if you are the only one putting out the effort in ANY relationship, then its just not gonna last. You may be happy at the moment, but nothing will get better. It cant. How is anything gonna get better if you are the only one trying to fix it? Maybe its not supposed to be fixed. Maybe the other person needs time away. Maybe they just dont know how. But whatever it is, i know that you shouldnt be the one who has to put out all of the effort all of the time. Its always nice to try, but dont overdo it... bc heartbreak, in that case, is inevitable. Give it time, and itll get better Just give it time. And i will.