Well hey, I cant really remember what I did yesterday. I do remember taking Kiwi for a walk around the block. We walked a mile. It was like freakin times square in our apt. complex...there were people out walking EVERYWHERE b/c it was such a pretty night! I could not believe how many people were out walking, playing, taking the trash out, checking their mail and whatever else. Today has been a day of different emotions. Sara didnt go to school today so I went with her to her doctors appt. We had to go to her OB/GYN and I got to hear the babys heartbeat which was exciting. After that since we were at the same hospital, we went to go visit Lester. Mom was in there with him already. I walked in the room feeling very dizzy and nautious and started crying...because it was not only the same hospital & floor that my dad was on but it was 2 rooms down. I had all these horrible flashbacks in my head that wouldnt stop. I felt bad crying in front of Lester, I didnt want to worry him anymore than he already is. I finally got ahold of myself and visited with him. THen Sara, mom, and I went to eat pizza hut down in the cafeteria. Mom stayed there and Sara & I left. We went home and checked the mail and I was excited to get a sweet card & letter in the mail from Livi's mom & dad. They sent recent pictures of her and it was very sweet. My eyes got all watery looking at the pictures because I miss that babygirl...I had tried to forget her and push her out of my mind but looking at the pictures of her sweet face...it wouldnt let me forget how much I loved her. OH WELL. It was a sweet letter though. We hung out in the apt. for awhile then got bored and ate some Arbys and then went back to the hospital. Mom was still there and Lesters daughter and her friends were there. We stayed about 2 hours and then left. Lester I dont think is doing good....Im scared that he wont live long and the he does has lung cancer (in an advanced stage like my dads was). Lester was almost like another dad to me or atleast a papaw or something...hes soooo sweet too....so PLEASE PRAY FOR HIM. Im worried sick. I dont think he even realizes how sick he is. Now Im at home and thats about it. "Then & Only Then" By: Out of Eden We search for outside conclusions, to questions we have inside We search for logical solutions to problems we cannot hide We hope and pray, the curse of war will be undone, that the world will be as one But we can't change it on our own, it takes more Then and only then, can we live, in perfect harmony only if and when we sacrifice,our comfort for the least of these get together down on our knees and pray God give us peace, then and only then We need to stop looking at ourselves, and look to the one who knows all he has the answers that can rebulid us, a foundation that will not fall we hope and pray, the curse of hate will be no more but it may be different at least we knoe what the power of prayer is for, let's unite We know its gonna take time to get it together to follow it through but if we try, a little bit harder just think what we could do, if we only knew