Well I havnt written in a few days b/c my life is pretty boring right now and also b/c I havnt had much energy. I dont know what my deal is...but I feel so fatigued and constantly tired and weak. I dont like it. November & December have NOT been good months for me healthwise. Let me see if I can try to think back in my feeble mind and see what I've done this week...umm..Monday was the year anniversary of my Dad's death. So I wasn't too happy that day, plus it was all rainy & blah outside. I did manange to get out of the house though which I think I needed. I went to Walmart and bought for his grave a miniature Christmas tree (I mean like the size of my hand) that was all Christmasy & festive looking. It had a snowman stuck down in the dirt and also a card that I wrote in. I also bought a REALLY small nativity scene to set on his grave too b/c he really loved Christmas time. He got all into decorating his house and him & Mary always set out a HUGE nativity scene inside their house. Anyways, after taht I went out to his grave and talked to him for awhile and told him how much I missed him and set out his stuff. I left there and went to the post office for mom and then went home. I was home for a little while and then Stephanie asked me to come over to her house and watch movies so I did. I got there about 7:30 and at 8 I told her that I had to atleast watch PART of "The Nanny Reunion: A Nosh To Remember" b/c I used to be all about that show...its great. So we watchd about 45 minutes of it and then we put in the movie "A View From the Top" with Gwyneth Paltrow in it. It was cute. Then we watched some "Fear Factor" and then at 11 I went home. Yesterday was Tuesday I got up and had my job interview at the mall and I got the job...I dont know yet when I start the lady is supposed to call me today...hope she does soon..I'm getting anxious. Obviously I decided not to take the daycare job even though I had gotten the job. I just cant put myself through that again and be miserable. The first time it was fun...the 2nd time it wasnt so fun..and hten being a nanny wasnt so bad..but being screwed over by parents wasnt too fun. SOOO although I love babies...Im just over that type job! So, the job Im about to start I will be getting paid pretty good...more than the daycare was even gonna pay me which wasnt so bad...BUT it is only seasonal so I will have to find a new job again in a few weeks! OH WELL. Last night I went to Julies at around 5 and started cleaning her house. She cooked a wonderful supper as usual. She cooked chicken, mashed potatoes, biscuits, broccoli & cheese, and for dessert some cherry cobbler. It was all sooo good!! I got done cleaning at 8 and talked to Julie for awhile. I was so tired and not feeling good so I know I wasnt too much fun. I had missed Julie and couoldnt wait to go over there...but not feeling good changes my whole attitude...as everyone in Texas knows haha. SO blah. I then took Grannys laundry to her and then came home and crashed at around 12:30 am. Today I slept in majorly...I dont know what my problem is. I've been sleeping in BAD. All that tiredness...plus depression I guess can do that to you. I just feel drained. Ive done nothing productive today except packed 2 boxes of my room up for when we move. I have so much JUNK in my room that it looks like Ive done nothing though! OH WELL. I might go Christmas shopping tonight with the little bit of money I have earned & little bit of birthday money I got. I guess it depends on how I feel. Well...ok, the end.