Well hey. I deleted my last entry only because I dont want to look back and remember those feelings of anger. I do very much feel the same way about what I said...but I am in a much more calm mood bout it right now. My life is so up & down. Mostly I am so happy right now...but it seems like I cant stay up for people trying to bring me down. But...I will get past it I know. I just have to keep smiling. In the words of Clay Walker: "I'm gonna live ,laugh, and love just for today I'm gonna take all the trouble tomorrow might bring and put it away Gonna drink every drop of happiness and cover it up..I'm gonna live, gonna laugh,gonna love" Anyways! I'm soooo sick of working right now. I am burnt out on Christmas shoppers, messes, and long crappy hours. I cant wait to go back to normal hours if I get to stay on. I was going to start school in January..looks more like fall now. I AM GOING BACK THOUGH. FOR SURE. I just need to get all my ducks in a row right now...and thats not very easy considering all the things that have went down the past couple of months..but I will survive. I am off today. Tonight me, Stephanie, and Emilee are going over to Paula, Alan, and Allisons house to eat supper. Paula is making chicken for us I think. Im excited. I love my friends....they have all been so wonderful, accepting, and supportive of me. They are great!!!! Today is my lil cousin Kristen's 16th birthday. AWW. I called her a lil bit ago and talked to her. I cant believe December is already halfway over!!! GEEE WHIZ! Me & Stephanie came up with this idea to do for Emilee thats been workign out pretty well. Its called "The 25 days of Christmas" and we have a snowman jar filled with little folded up slips of paper that have "activities" on them. There are 25 of them and Emilee gets to draw one out of the jar every morning and we have to do that activity together that night. She LOVES it. The first thing she does in the morning before school is go straight to the jar. We have done things like "go get donuts, drive to see Christmas lights, play boardgames, eat out Emilees pick, Eat out Stephanies pick...etc". One of them is go iceskating too which si someting we havnt done yet. Oh and last night was make Christmas ornaments together, so we did that and Em hung them onthe tree. I got my birthday present from my friend Emily. She got me a pink John Deer hat and a bag of reese cups. That was so sweet. Well..gonna go for now..BYE!