Hey. Well today is Friday. (hallelujah) I got up today and had some Burger King and then got ready & went to work. I got off at 6 and went straight home to get ready to go out to eat. I dressed up (but in capris) and picked up Sara and we met Emily at O'Charley's on the strip. Nathan (Emily's beau) just started working there and tonight was his first night serving by himself~ so we let him serve us. =) I wasn't in a great mood for different reasons. The past 2 days I've been feeling kinda depressed. Anyways, I ate potato soup, rolls, and tasted Sara's chicken and Em's spinach dip. I left and went to Jimmy & Sherry's. Mom & Granny were there when I got there. It was the first time Granny had seen their home b/c she can't get out much, and she hadn't seen Shawn in a while. I hadn't seen him in about 4 weeks so I was dying to see him. He is SOO big. He is crawling now and holding himself up at the table. He had on an oversized tshirt that said "Smart Cookie" on it...it was so cute. After mom & Granny left I stayed and looked at pictures of watched the video of the night before & Day of Shawn's birth. It was so sweet. Dad was on there too. He's been on my mind alot lately again, and I get all depressed thinking of him, missing him, and remembering all that he went through in his last days. That is somethign I just cannot shake. Ya know...everyone is telling me how many friends I have and such a great family and I know I do. I am blessed with so many WONDERFUL friends and awesome family...but lately I have been feeling so alone. I don't know why. I know I have all of them in my life and I'm always busy with somebody...and I know God is always there and He will never leave me...but I can't help but to feel so lonely. It sucks that some people who mean the world to youand to promise to always be there seem to be the people that leave you when you need them the most. I know from experience that noone shoud rely on people or put their trust in them...but on this earth~ we need human love and human touch. And I know I have people who pray for me... and then there are others who "pray" for me but yet don't want anything to do with me. Things like that confuse me. I dont understand people...and why it's so hard for people to just "get along" and LOVE ONE ANOTHER like Jesus told us to do. Anyways- I got sidetracked, but Yea...point being I feel so lonely right now, so I need some prayers. I'm sorry I rambled, but I guess that's what journals are for. There are other things I am struggling with right now too...and I just need the love and shoulder of a friend and true Christian. Just lots of bad things I am dealing with right now. Anyways- back to my day...SORRY! I got to see Jimmy & Sherry's new dog. OMG it is precious. It is a schnauzer and looks JUST like Kiwi as a puppy. He is even black with a white belly. His name is Sammy- I fell in love with him. I left Jimmy's at around midnight and now I am at home. I guess I'm gonna go for now...now that I got all deep and stuff. :/ But here is a song that I love by Jaci Velasquez that has been on my heart...I guess b/c it's how I feel: "I Will Rest In You" Lord, I'm in the dark, Seems to me the line is dead when I come calling. No one there, the sky is falling; Lord, I need to know. My mind is playing games again, You're right where You have always been. Take me back to You, The place that I once knew as a little child; Constantly the eyes of God watched over me. Oh, I want to be In the place that I once knew as a little child, Fall into the bed of faith prepared for me. I will rest in You, I will rest in You, I will rest in You. Tell me I'm a fool, Tell me that You love me for the fool I am, Comfort me like only You can, And tell me there's a place Where I can feel Your breath Like sweet caresses on my face again. Take me back to You, The place that I once knew as a little child; Constantly the eyes of God watched over me. Oh, I want to be In the place that I once knew as a little child, Fall into the bed of faith prepared for me. I will rest in You, I will rest in You, I will rest in You. Take me back to You. The place that I once knew as a little child; Constantly the eyes of God watched over me Oh, I want to be In the place that I once knew as a little child, Fall into the bed of faith prepared for me. I will rest in You, I will rest in You, I will rest in You.