Ugh what a week! Well, yesterday was a little better day atleast. I came home from work and watched TV and stuff for awhile. Then around 7 I called Debra to see how she was doing since she has been sick all week and I never got an update on her. I was kinda nervous to call her...I had to wait like 10 minutes after I decided to call her until I actually did. I dont know why I get like that...I guess I just figured she might not want to talk to me since I was with her all weekend...and I hate rejection. But I got worried for nothing. She was as welcoming as ever and her sweet, angelic voice was enough to put me in a better mood. I talked to her probably for about an hour & a half or 2 hours. I needed it. With the way I've been feeling...a talk with my sister was just what I needed! I know it hasnt even been a week since Ive seen her, but I miss her so much. Its hard to all the sudden become close to a sister or brother and then have to live with the fact that they live in another state and cant see or talk to them as often as you'd like. I never knew how hard it would be until now. Oh well...I suppose I should just be happy that she & Darrell are even in my life at all now. What's weird is the fact that Todd & David live here in Knoxville, but yet I dont have any type of relationship with them. Anyways, enough about all of that...but it did cheer me up to talk to Debra Sue. Today was an ok day. I watched "Sweet Home Alabama" while Livi took her morning nap and then Deana called and ordered a pizza for me from work which was super sweet of her. So I had me some Dominoes cheese pizza for lunch. I played with Livi outside in her pool for awhile and then she slept the rest of the day away. I put her down at 12...and she slept until 2:40! Talk about a LONG nap. Rachel called me so I talked to her half of the time and then I called Paula back and talked to her. After work I came home and was knocked out. I was so sleepy...have been all week basically. I slept until 6:15 and then I got ready to go to Tim's moms funeral. :( I got there and was fine and everything I didnt start feeling weird until I got in line...it brought back all the feelings of standing up there with Daddy. I didnt cry though! It was just weird for a minute. I stayed and talked to Kristen, Julie, Brenda, Robby, Kathy, Britt and everyone from the family for a few minutes and then left. It was good to see the family though, I feel like I havnt seen them in ages...I've missed them. Tim was doing good. I was glad. I asked how he was and he said "I'm doin pretty good....I'm gonna miss her very much, but I'm just happy that she's happy now"...and I could tell he wasn't saying that just because it's the "strong" thing to say...he had such sincerity in his voice and I could tell he was at peace with it...which is AWESOME...I still havn't gotten to that point with Daddy. I wish that I could. I ran into Kayla Taylor's mom there...she is a Widby...related by marriage to Tim. So I talked to her for awhile and told her to tell Kayla hi because I havnt seen her in a few months. When I left I was finally glad to get out of there. I knwo this is weird, but I had the strangest urge to call Daddy when I left the funeral home...I STILL to this day think "Oh I need to call Daddy" and then i'm like "oh wait". Ughh. Anyways...enough sad stuff. After leaving the funeral home I stopped to get gas where I got hit on by 2 guys. One was a redheaded redneck and the other one was a black thug...yea 2 totally different types of guys...and neither one I would give the time of day haha. I just smiled and went on my way. I went to Sonic to get some food and now I'm at home. I also took my tongue ring out today...I'm gonna let it grow up. I like it and I still think it's cute and all...but I've had it almost a year now and I knwo if you keep it in too long it can mess your teeth up...plus, I'll be 23 this year and I'm just getting of age where I need to calm down...get out of my "wild" stage...not that I ever was WILD haha..but the last 2 years I was at my wildest points I guess...if that makes sense. I reckon Ill give Marci or Emily or someone my tonguerings if they want them. Well, tomorrow me & Paula are going to Sevierville so I'll write about that later. BYE BYE.