First of all I'd like to shout out a Happy 4th birthday to Trevor Lusk and also Happy 40 something birthday to Robby Tindell. :) Well its Tuesday. Monday was a rather bad day. I find out that starting next week I have no job b/c Livi is going to daycare. Great timing. So after work yesterday I got upset and cried a little and called Kristi to tell her I probably wasnt going to be able to come to Houston. "Houston, we have a problem." :( I just wont have the money and even moreso wont have any money for my bills that will be waiting for me when I come back. But I dont know...we'll see. After talking to Kristi I talked to my Aunt JUlie on the phone and packed my stuff up from Bob's and moved back to the apartment. I just feel like I have so much "stuff" on top of me and right now I just want to have my own room and own bed to wallow and cry on. Regardless if Billy's there or not. So I went home and unpacked some of my stuff. I got online and went into a private yahoo chatroom with my "crystal lewis fan friends"...it was nice talking to them, they are always encouraging. :) Then I got a phone call from my brother Todd!!! That was the bright spot in my day! I was SO excited to hear from him. The last time I saw OR spoke to him was the family Christmas party we had not too long after Daddy passed away. SO it was awesome to talk to him for about 20 minutes or so on the phone. I got to talk to his wife Stephanie a little too b/c he put me on speakerphone for a few minutes. That cheered me up though. He called me to talk to me about the family reunion THIS COMING SATURDAY. Praise the Lord I have something to look forward to that will unstress me! IT was exactly a year ago today the last time I ever got to go to church and out to eat with Daddy. I remember the date b/c it was Trevor & RObby's birthday. Shawn was dedicated to the Lord at Daddys church and so we all went to see it. Then after church Daddy & Mary treated me out to eat...of course at Shoneys on Clinton Hwy. I remember that when we were there I made him sing that song for me that he used to sing to me when I was a little girl...the "Bushel & a Peck" song. ;) Then, the next time I saw him was the day before Thanksgiving in the hospital when we learned he had cancer. This is a hard time of year. :Sigh: WEll I went to bed about 10:30. It was SOO funny..I had a bad dream last night and I woke up at 3:45 am doing this really weird & loud scream. It was so loud that I woke myself up and Sara was asleep next to me and jumped up b/c it scared her and she said "what, whats wrong" and then the next thing I know mom is running in my room to see what was wrong too haha. It MUST have been loud and piercing lol. I told them nothing was wrong I just had a bad dream! Then we all started cracking up. It was so funny. After that I had all these thoughts about no money, no job, no trip and etc on my mind and so I tossed and turned until 5:00 am and then FINALLY fell back asleep til my alarm went off at 6:30. Now Im at work and Livi is taking her morning nap. I got here and talked to Travis and asked him all the questions I needed to hear the answers to...and he answered them all. He said that they were going to try to do something special for me or give me a lil extra money so I can MAYBE still go on my trip...which will be much appreciated..but I'm still so disappointed. OH WELL, thats life I guess. Heather has been an angel and ever since I told her yesterday she has been looking up jobs and stuff for me...that is SO incredibly sweet and means the world to me. LOVE YOU HEATHER! :MUAH: Well, thats all for now I guess. Please pray for me and my job/money situation. BYE.