hello. Well I havn't written in a few days. Today is July 6th..it's Tuesday. This weekend was 4th of July weekend and I was off yesterday. :) Umm I dunno if I can even remember everything I did this weekend. Uhh..Friday Sara wanted to do something with me so me & her went to the mall to pick up her check and then went to Arby's to eat and then driving around. Umm..Saturday I got up at 11:30ish hung around the house until time to go to Julies. We celebrated on the 3rd of July this year lol. I got there at 5 and everyone was pretty much there. There was tons of yummy food...BBQ sandwiches, meatballs, chips & dip, deviled eggs, beans, some kind of pasta salad type thing and lots more. And the desserts...they were outrageous! Cookies, cupcakes, AND iced brownies with chocolate chunks in them that Amy made. Thank you AMY! lol. They were yummylicious! ;) I talked with Robby T. for quite awhile about songwriting. I would love to do that. Umm...Kathy showed me her tattoo. It was so prettY!!! I was jealous. Its a pink & purple butterfly on her chest. Brandon had also gotten one that day...it was a BIG black cross on his arm just like Robby D.'s but w/out the crown of thorns around it. Julie & Tim had finally gotten saddles & stirups for the horses and finally tamed Sadie so we got to ride her! It was so cool! Tony acted a little jealous lol. aw. Around 9:30 the "men" went up to the pond and shot the firwworks for all the women. It was cool...they had tons of them! Shawn liked them, he kept going "ooooh" lol. He's SO cute. By the way, he is walking now!!! ;) I left around 11:30 and went home and went to bed. Sunday morning I picked Marci up at 10:15 for church. IT started at 10:35 or something so we close to being right on time. Heather was there (It's her church). SO me & Marci sat with her & her dad. It was cool. They had a neat 4th of July service..and I just LOVE her preacher. He is so genuine and loving. Not money hungry, or selfish...his love of God & people shines out from him and you can tell he is not a phony. I talked to him for a sec after church b/c I wanted to thank him for the sweet message he left on my phone right after Daddy died...which by the way was exactly 7 months ago today. :( If it's not raining, I may go by his grave after work. I dunno. ANyways, after church me, Heather & Marci talked for awhile in the parking lot and then me & Marci left to go to Wendy's to eat lunch. Then we scanned a few pictures at my apartment until time to go to Bob & Sara's. Marci went with me over there. Mom, Bob, Jimmy, Sherry, and Shawn were swimming when we got there. After everyone got done swimming we went inside and Bob had cooked beans, chicken, steaks, hamburgers, hotdogs, and fries~ lol. Marci and I had just eaten like 3 hours before so we weren't hungry but we nibbled on some chicken & watermelon. We had to go down to Doans Market & Deli to get some ice and I saw Lori King there. Havnt' seen her in awhile. We said Hi but she was going out & I was coming in so that was the extent of it! Marci & I left Bob's after "eating". We went back to the apartment for awhile looking up webpage graphics and such, then we got ready to leave. We got to the "Worlds Fair Site" at 8 for the celebration of fireworks and stuff. It was so cute...it's been YEARS since I have been there..I was just a little one so I was ALL excited. It looked like freakin woodstock lol..just a family oriented one. ;) There were kids running through water spouts, moonwalks, crafts, exhibits, FOOD, live music and all kinds of stuff. Marci & I took TONS of pictures! I wanted to run through the water thingies shooting up but I was all fixed up and so I didn't. We did however dip out feet into the little waterfall thingy they have there under the bridge where we got the butt of our pants SOAKING wet. We ran into Madisen there and talked to her for a lil while. She's so funny. We ate us some good ole "Nathans Hotdogs" and then I got me some cotton candy and we found a place on the grass where there were thousands of peopel already seated. The fireworks started at 9:50. They were pretty...not as great as BoomsDay...but still cool.There was this Mexican dude sitting beside us on the grass that was either drunk or kooky one! He kept on SCREAMING throughout the show sayign stuff like "I LOVE AMERICA! EVERYONE GET HAPPY & CLAP..WE ARE CELEBRATING OUR FREEDOM" in the most MEXICAN sounding voice lol. He sounded sarcastic though not like he was forreal...that's why I think he was drunk. Anyways, on the way out of the parking garage it took 30 minutes lol. So me & Marci jammed to my BeachBoys Greatest Hits CD to pass time away. I was nice and let this truck go in front of me and a car behind him too. Well when it was time for traffic to move again the chic behind the car decided she was going to go to and I was like "umm hold up you wouldnt even be going if I wouldnt have let those 2 go" but she sped up real fast and got on the bumper of that car so that I couldnt pull in...she had to be have been like 17 and so immature. She was laughing like it was funny so I just STARED at her for like 3 minutes straight just starign and it made her feel uneasy and she had to look away...she looked kinda nervous lol. But she made me so mad! But when the car in front of us started moving she all hurried and squeezed her butt in so I just stayed put and like waved my hand motioning for her to go so taht she would think I thought I was being generous and gesturing for her to go and LETTING her go ~haha. After leaving there I drove me & Marci to the Sevierville exit which only took 15 minutes and we stopped @ that big fireworks outlet that'sright there at the exit and got us some sparklers and a firework thingy. We drove back to my apt and had mom come out tehre to take pics of us acting stupid and doing them...well in the process mom was lighting my sparkler for me and me being all jittery and scared of them like I am BURNED moms hand! I felt sooooo bad. Mom went running inside AFTER taking our picture (what a brave & sweet woman LOL). After me & Marci did our sparklers we went in and looked at moms hand which was white looking and blisters were starting to come up. :( I FELT HORRIBLE...LIKE SCUM. But mom just laughed about it and told me it wasn't my fault. AW. Me & Marci then went to Walgreens and got mom some cooling gel pads & gauze and some food for her. Then, we attempted to do our fireworks. It took forever to get it right, and when we did it surprised us at how loud it was...I thought we were gonna get arrested lol. It was like past midnight. But it was pretty! Then we went upstairs and started watchign "10 Things I Hate About You" but didnt make it thgourh it. We ended up going to bed. We woke up at 11 yesterday morning and went to get a pizza for lunch. We ate it and finished watching the movie and got online. Tara & Stephanie supposively ROLLED MY CAR and left me notes on it overnight...but me & Marci didnt see anything, so I dunno what happened with that. After the movie I let Marci work on her webpage and I watched Joel Osteen preach, napped, adn then cleaned my bathroom and the kitchen. My plans for this week are to "clean out my closet" so to speak! I have SO moved on from the past part of my life that I was holding on to for SOOO long. I am going to empty picture frames of 2 particular friends that I have not been able to let go of their friendships for the past couple of years that I havnt been friends with them. Praise God I have let go of both of them now. I am ready to find a box to put those pictures in as well as gifts, cards, and letters from them that I have been clinging to. Of course I will always cherish the memories of the past which is why I am keeping them and putting them away in a box as keepsakes but I am over having that stuff that no longer has any hold on me hanging on my wall or wherever else! It's time to FORREAL start over new...and not just "try to" and "attempt to"...I WANT to. I am happy right now~ God has blessed with me so many friends and people who love me...I do not deserve all of them...not only the wonderful people who have stuck by me for years such as Rachel, Leslie, Jenni, Lori,Paula, Lorrie, and Marci but my newer friends such as Emily, Heather, Amy, Sonya and the list truly goes on & on!!! Plus my AWESOME families. My blessings are worth WAY more than the 2 friendships that I lost!!! Anyways- now if I could only get the rest of my life back on track such as letting go of Daddy's death & accepting it...and decidign what I want to do with my life career wise & schoolwise, and getting into a church!!! Those are my 3 main goals! And Philippians 4:13 says it all!! ;) WOW how did I get off on all of that?? Dang. ANyways, it started storming really bad last night so we didnt get to go swimming so we got on the couches and watched "The Count of Monte Cristo" (MY MOVVIIIE)...Marci had never seen it...she said she liked it. IT's so good though. After that we looked up Nashville hotel b/c we are gonna take a lil roadtrip in a couple of weeks. I dropped Marci off at like 9:30 and then came home, got online, cleaned a lil more, and then went to bed!This mornign I stopped at McDonalds on Western on the way to work and saw Charatie at work. So, I talked to her for a second~ dont really know her that well or what to think of her but thats OK. Now here I sit at work. Olivia is 6 months old EXACTLY today. She has been napping for about 45 minutes. She falls asleep in her baby bed 98% of the time but today she cried and cried so I picked her up and let her lay on me in the rocking chair and we didnt even rock but she just fell asleep. It was so sweet. That is one of the sweetest feelings ever to have a baby fall asleep on you. ;) Well this has been SUPER long so I'm gonna go! If it doesnt rain, me & Marci are going walkng! BYE FOR NOW!