hey. Well, I am exhausted. Today was a fair day I guess. I worked 7:45-3:15 today. They upped me an hour longer b/c Deana doesnt get off until 3 now but they upped the salary too, so its ok. Today went pretty good, Olivia was good, I was just really tired for some reason. I dunno why. It seemed like the latter part of the afternoon rolled on FOREVER. When Deana got home I talked to her for a minute and then I left and went to Ingles like 2 seconds from their house and bought a white rose bouquet w/baby's breath around it for my Daddy and a lil card to attach. The card I picked reminded me of him; it had an old timey car on it and then had hot air balloons flying away into the sky and to me that was symbolism for him being free. I wrote on it and put it with the rose and then drove to his grave. The cemetery his grave is at is only like 7 minutes from Deana & Travis so it didnt take long to get there. I kinda just stood there over the grave for awhile holding the flowers and then finally I put them down and I sat down in the grass by the tree next to the grave and just sat there crying and talking to him for about 30 minutes. Noone else was there. It was kind of peaceful. Although I cried and was sad, I didnt leave feeling depressed like I usually do, so maybe from now on I can start going to his grave more often w/out the feeling of being scared and afraid of how emotional I will get. After I left I came home and took a 2 hour nap. Marci called and woke me up (like 5 minutes before my alarm was gonna go off anyways) and we talked for about 30 minutes and then I got up and watched American Idol ~ the finale. WOO. I was so pumped! It was all so exciting. IT was a really good show! I even cried, lol, how lame is that! Mom ordered Steak Out while we were watchign it, but I wasn't hungry so I just ordered a New York Style Cheesecake w/strawberry topping and let me tell ya, it was awesome. American Idol & Cheesecake, what more do I need? hahaha. I was rootin for Diana DeGarmo but Fantasia won. I figured it would be that way b/c she is just an awesome performer...really interesting, but Diana really does have a prettier voice, and she is just as cute as a button! They are both great though, but congrats to Fantasia. Now I am sittin here online. Sara & Whitney are here..this is like the 3rd night ina row Whit has spent the night. She's so cute. Welp, that's about all for now. Gonna go to bed cuz I gotta get up at the crack of dawn! BYEE.