Yesterday was the last day of the musical. I am so glad, and at the same time I was hoping somehow that I would get along with everyone at least well enough that I could expect to be able to talk to them again. I guess I was always meant to be lonely. But I feel like I have just been sucked into a deep casm with some lurking monster at the end, and while I grab for anything to stop me from falling and be swallowed be this ever daunting end, all I grab are earth worms and I continue to fall. I guess I still want to hang out with the people from musical *most of them anyway* but I dont want to have to spend my life at school to do so. cant have everything I want. last night I got up on the roof of my school. I wanted to go into the tunnels under our school but I couldn't get anyone else to show me where they were. I still havent had breakfast yet, and my stomach keeps reminding me its time to go eat. I wish somehow I could just be content. but I always seem to need somebody who doesn't exist. ohwell. BREAKFAST