I really want to say something that lashes out, that forces the unwary reader to listen. I want you all to hear me, but in a world with so much noise, silence makes a far better statement than anything I can verbalize. Every time I think I have my life figured out, the dream and hope inside my plans get smashed. I don't have anything to say anymore, except that by now I have nothing left to expect but that if I expect anything it will fall through. Thanks.