I lost a friend today. I really lost him slowly and he died last Friday. They closed a street for him, and shot over him, and worded through him, but it doesn't seem to do him justice. Sleep forever until I wake you my lost friend, and know that I love you. I walked aimlessly for two hours today, unable to find any comfort, unable to get rid of any pain. Only to find that after walking for two hours, I was no closer to happiness, instead my feet hurt. The rain numbed my face and hands, but all I could feel was the water brush my skin, and wish that I had someone close that could brush it off. I wish I had some reason to stop walking, to settle down and curl up to. Pillows aren't quite people, but they'll do, because I hurt to bad to keep on walking. cuddle up to me in the rain. taste my tears in the salty air as the sea spray pushes the ocean into the sky. nestle your head into my pain. kiss me for luck and don't leave me alone for tomorrow I die. I'm already dying alone. a slow painful goodbye is much harder after everything has already been said. my heart is cold as a stone. He's already gone but I, all alone, have years left to live 'til I'm dead.