I gave in today. I yielded to gray and let it suck me under and drown my thoughts in soft smoke. It was exhilarating, as every inch of my body pounded with the beat of my heart. Your lips have a leaden, rich, soft, lust, Soft and smooth and luxuriously, gloriously sweet. Just like every other inch of you. I hate that you don't like spoons with fingerprints, and compulsively clean, that you forget to reach out sometimes, because you have to change the world. But I love that I hate it. And now I don't know anything, as though simply loving you makes me forget everything I ever knew. I gave in today, and now I worry that I might lose you. Its a foolish worry, but I've never given in completely before. And I've never given in at all and not regretted it. You forget to reach out sometimes, because you have to change the world. But the world changes, just because your here. You are sunshine, and starlight. You are my angel. Every time you walk into my world, I feel I can breath for the first time. I gave in today, I don't know what that means. But I just don't want to lose you, ever. The world changes just because your here, And I feel I can breath, finally.