I'm still trying to change my perspective. I got kicked out a little bit last night, and I tried to brush it off but the ride home made me really mad. And I felt like an idiot for having invested so much in something (something always means more these days). I came home and took a bunch of vitamins (my mom is sick and my joints are sore) and went up stairs to sort myself out. I read a good 15 chapters in remembering wholeness and then I started a list of 1,000 things I am grateful for. I made it to 101 which as it turns out was "Always." I felt better, but not good. And the only thing I learned was to do things because I wanted to, rather than out of responsibility. I feel drained, like I am spending too much time working on being who I am instead of just being that person. I didn't get out of bed today until 12:30. I wouldn't have minded getting out of bed earlier but my mom left at 12:30 and I really didn't need any more sleep. I am happy. I am attracting joy, peace, and money. I choose my future and I choose to be happy for Always.