When I think of how long it's been since I've spent quality time writing here, I think of the lyrics "It's been a while", by Staind. Indeed it has been a long while, not just with Sitdiary having been down for the majority of that while, but a while since I've communicated any thought of mine whatsover, stories included, to the online world. It's fair to say I've missed you and I'll be flattered to know if I've been missed too.
The nature of this entry is the 'art of thinking'. A lot has changed for me since my last entry and this newest entry is not so much about updating you to what's changed, but more so to where I am right now since what has changed. The most beautiful fact to inform you of however is that I'm now a married man. And wouldn't you believe that the gorgeous woman I'm married to is in fact a woman I met several years ago here on Sitdiary. A further fact is that I'm writing this entry based on recent advice my wife gave me of relation to the nature of this entry as mentioned above.
Today I'm reminded there are few things I'm sure about in life anymore. I'm thankful to only have a few things in the first place that I need to be sure of, but I currently have little faith right now, not so much as to who I am, but rather who it is I will be. And this current not knowing, this uncertainty of not at least being sure if I'm on a concrete path, it reminds me that before I know it my life will be at a stage where I'll no longer be able to think of who it is I'll be, because I'll have arrived there with nothing further in tools available, no heart left, nor physical capacity to make a last minute difference should I still need to and I'll have to accept the life I'll have led and hope any dreams which are still left on the table were not the dreams I wanted to happen most of all.
That's why the ability to think has so many benefits and yet with it, so many barriers. It willl either show you the light or the dark, the best of you or the worst of you and quite frankly, it will either allow you to live your life to the fullest, or it will kill you. It therefore pays to know as soon as possible that you are always in control even when life's utmost challenges - a job, a person, an illness - makes you feel you aren't. Life might make you feel there's only so much you can do, when the complete truth is appreciating how you can live life doing everything you personally want and deserve.
Going back to a few points in the third paragraph of this entry, for a while now I've since been able to see and feel the end of my life as an encouragement to ensure that I never rest on my laurels in letting my life feel out of my control. When life allows us to make our own choice of which path we will take, no matter how predestined a certain path seems to already be, it's hard to swallow in such given choices the overwhelment of just how many paths their actually is.
Before taking any path, it's necessary to understand who we are and which path seems most appropriate for us, but