God damn, I feel soo alone these days. With this whole war thing I feel like the only one who really doesn't like war. Like with that poll on the front page of SIT diary, soo many people are for the troops. Me to, seriously, my aunts entire family has lived on Army, practically, 2 brothers in the army, my uncle just "retired" from it, they've grown up on bases and in various countries. The thing is that I don't like our troops going into another country to fight a war that isn't ours to fight. I want my cousin to stay here, with his wife and little baby, I don't want him out there. I get soo much backlash from being anti-war, it's tiring, and I don't understand why I put up with it. Most of the time I can't really just say "o well I'm anti-war" why? Because I'm a stupid little bitch who's too afraid of my friends and the rest of the world to admit anything.I must have been put into the wrong person, I don't belong here, I don't deserve what good things I've got most of the time, and I don't believe I really deserve every one of the bad things I deal with, maybe some of it, but not everything. Now I know I should be happy because I have a lot more then most, but still, I dunno. Well that was my useless blithering, I'm gonna go have my second nevous breakdown in a week. Hooray.