Braindead, definitely. Tipsy like hell because I haven't had any alcohol in a couple months...I'm getting over it though. Ha. I'm planning two things for Winter Break: dying my hair pink before WC, and getting the side of my lip pierced. My last piercing hasn't even healed yet and I want a new one. I think its true, you can get addicted to piercings. Just wait 'til I get the money for tats. I wonder, when I get older, if I'm going to look back at this and think that I was ridiculous. I hope not. I want this to be good. Rachel's moving to Texas, tomorrow is the last time that I'll probably see her for a long time. Unless I get a car and then maybe me and my friends will drive down there. I can't wait to move out, I'm just so ready for a change. I realize its going to turn into a huge thing, its going to be hard. But I want that, I want to be ready for something hard, for once. I want the world to stop springing these things on me. I am already writing my album, and making a person out of me. This is just something I have to do. you don't seem to realize, I can do this on my own, and if I fall I'll take it all, its so easy after all