I feel like shit right now. I dunno. Its not just that my dad yelled at me, I just feel like shit. I'm tired. I need to wash my clothes though. I swam. I swam today. I feel fat though, no matter how well I eat. I can't see my backbone anymore. I have no spine maybe. 90's songs, the slow sweet ones, they make me cry. 'Cos they remind me of how things used to be, they remind me of best friends and of the things I used to have, and the things I didn't have back then. Every once in a while I think about that day we went down to the Tracks. The day I found out Maggie was gone. Soo foggy, and walking to the mall, and things seemed soo different, like the world had quit turning for us. Like there was a change in the way the wind blew, and everybody noticed it. The world quit turning, so that we had a chance to say I love you for the first time, because that was all we could do. baby's black balloon makes her fly. I almost fell into that hole in your life. and your not thinking about tomorrow. 'cos you were the same as me