Listening to: Motion City Soundtrack-Don't Call It A Comeback
Feeling: wretched
Yeah, since everybody I know is doing this, I'm just going to go along with that. I can bet you, everybody knows what they were doing the day or the time they learned about the WTC, Pentagon, and VG wrecks. Me...I had a wierd time with this one.
All I remember was waking up, and I was in Jr. High so I went to school later then I do now, well I used to watch Cartoons. But that day I woke up and it was kinda like 'no somethings not right' though ironically nothing ever is. So I turned on the news, and all that was up was a picture of two towers burning. I had NO idea where that was, I had no idea what those towers were called, no idea what had happened. I just kinda thought 'god I hope they got everybody out of there' and 'why are they BOTH burning?' cuz what can I say? It was 7 in the morning. It took a couple minutes, then they started explaining what was going on. Then it was just kinda like 'oh shit'. I went to my nieghbors house, we watched it there to, we all sat in the living room, and watched the first tower fall....saw everybody running. And I guess back then...it didn't matter to me...well I don't mean it like that..I just could not grasp the concept of soo many people dying, it has never hit me really...maybe until now, because I know what death is, I know what it's like to lose the people I love, and now I can multiply that by thousands..and it breaks my fucking heart. But yeah. I went to school, all the teachers were broken up, all the kids were just kinda confused. I went home, and all they played on the news was the same clip...second plane hitting the second tower, first tower falling, second falling. Over and over, till I just didn't feel good, and I couldn't watch anymore. Then I heard about the pentagon, and the other plane, and it was worse. But I still didn't feel anything really.
So that was my story, it sounds almost self centered. But now, I can almost grasp that amount, the loss, it took me 2 fucking years for that. It took a day to choose my side in this war business, and 2 years to understand what the excuse for that war really was...not right. But I stand my ground, what I believe is what I believe, and no amount of evidence is going to change that. No media is going to tell me what to believe, I'll choose for myself.
I don't think I was appreciated much this morning, we were supposed to do the pledge of alliegance. I'm sorry, I know some people don't agree with me, but I will take a moment of silence, for the people that died, but to stand up and repeat a line made years ago that nobody follows...that's just not right, and I don't do it. Sorry people, I don't do that. I have to go, John's on. I'll talk about my day later. I have to make myself dinner.
..so get your tanks and load your guns and hold your sons in family huddle, because even if we win this tug-of-war and even the score humanity struggles, theres a need of blood for whats been uncovered under the rubble, some of them dug for answers in the mess, but the rest were looking for trouble..
like the quote. its good.
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