I've been trying to get back on, to tell myself that she's gone, and that she'd like it better if we didn't spend too much time being sad. Maggie always had a smile, just so that nobody else could feel sad. Went down to the tracks again, I feel really terrible for everybody. Kayci was there, a train went by and she just covered her ears and walked down to the street. I feel bad for Kayci, Shea, Brooke, Nicole, Amanda, Laurin, Nina and basically everybody. Its soo hard, all of this, I know that I can't even grasp what it really feels like to people like Nicole and Brooke, because they were better friends with Maggie. But still, I don't see why some people choose to be soo stupid about who gets to mourn or not. Really. Tomorrow's the service, I hope nobodies intimidated by these people who are going around telling them they weren't good enough friends with her to go.