Today was by-far the worst of my summer. Today should be erased from the books completely. I just want somebody who I can call after a bad day, and go hang out with. But nobodies like that. Which is quite harsh. But I think I'll live. I hope so at least. Lately I can't seem to get enough sleep, ever. No matter if I sleep 4 hours or 12 hours. It's really lame and I don't like feeling tired all the time. Plus I look like shit 24/7 (normally I don't feel and look like shit at the same time so...) The show is in 10 fuckin' days. I am soo amped and ready for this. Apparently the boys are back in town, which is nice, can't wait to randomly run into one of them. But if Dan almost runs me over with his damn truck one more time I'm going to kill him, personally. I was telling Nina, it's been soo long I am actually missing the way Kai flips his hair when he talks. It cracks me up, and when I see him I'm just gonna bust up. Ahh, love those guys. I don't even want to talk about work right now. I am very very stressed about it. VERY FUCKING STRESSED. I feel like I'm gonna have a panic attack. But I just need to relax and remember that even if I lose this job *knock on wood* I now have experience and it might be easier to get a new one. But let's hope that doesn't have to happen. you want nothing to do with me I don't know what to do with you 'cos you don't know what you do to me I want this to be RIGHT. I want this to WORK. I want him and that's all I think about sometimes. baby is this love for real? let me in your arms to feel the beating of your heart baby